I know my dad is proud of me and all my accomplishments. But he always has said that…he always wanted me to go to a school with a big football program. He wanted to be a “trojan parent,” “bruin parent,” or “bear parent.” And it just makes me so sad that I can’t fufill his dreams and make him happy. I know I’m not going to get in those schools, but I just wanted it sooo bad for him. He’s given me everything and has been there for me through thick and thin and I just wanted results that he could truly be proud of. I know he’s proud, but I just wanted those schools to make everything he’s done for me feel worth it.
It’s really weighing heavy on me.
It’s time for college acceptances/rejections.
In the next two weeks I’ll know where I’ll be spending the next four years.
Anxiety.